A curse upon us

When Colt and I first moved into a current apartment, which in actuality is an old...old house fixed to be split into two apartments in downtown Boise, Colt immediately went exploring. Now I must preface that we love older homes. The character they have and the unusual-ness that we encounter with them. Granted, living in older homes comes with its drawbacks. For example, our cold water faucet runs (yes there are seperate faucets for hot and cold), and we cannot get it to stop without turning off the water beneath the sink. The shower periodically becomes extremely hot for a short period and then returns to normal. And of course the possibility that something crazy happened in this exact place many years ago! All small adventures we endure to live downtown and in a unique place.

Colt went exploring and found the entrance to the upper part of the house, which for apartment purposes has been boarded up. I stayed behind because my pregnant state prevented me from climbing up the hole in the ceiling and hoisting myself into an unkown, unstable upper section of an old house. He came back with tales of a devil worshipping room/"black mass room" and other unsettling markings. A couple days later I woke up went out of our bedroom on my way to the kitchen and I stopped in my tracks facing a creepy picture strategically placed by my husband so that I would see it. It was an old class photo presumably in the 80's of an all girl class at a private school - because every child had a catholic type of plaid skirt and blouse uniform. It was faded and dirty. The photo in combination with what was found in the upper part of the house, I can only conclude one thing; One of the girls in the photo was murdered by her classmates in the upper part of the house. Others came and tried to contact the disturbed spirit of this girl through demonic means.

Take a look at the photos of the sealed and cursed rooms in the upper part of the house:

"Seance Candle"

Do Not Enter the "Door to HELL"

"Black Mass Room"

Now that Colt has opened the sealed part of the house, the girl's troubled spirit now haunts us - Its good that we are friendly to the disembodied residents of our home, well we like to think so.

Anyone else have a Ghost adventure or experience with the paranormal??

Transitions...not so easy

Colt and I have had Cash in our home for 2 weeks now. We thought we were adjusting just fine. I was getting up during the night to do feedings (Colt helping out where he could), taking turns changing diapers and hanging out, etc...but today we had a hard dose of reality. Colt went back to school yesterday and is gone every day now. I get to stay home but I realize how much I relied on the company of him and his assistance. Colt came home today exhausted, the lack of consistent sleep has caught up to him and I have been overwhelmed with being alone and having only Cash to watch over. I never thought not working would affect me the way it has. I guess since I have been working, having a job all of my life, being on maternity leave now is totally new and somewhat unnerving.

Aside from figuring out our daily schedules, I realize that there is still so much to learn. You just hope that you are doing the right things and pray that your child is happy. It is overwhelming and scary and confidence goes out the window. Then there is that moment when you look at your child and realize he is so amazing and then you think maybe it is all worth it.

Perhaps this is how parenting is. You think you have the hang of it and then BAM! your confidence is shaken to the core and you question everything...until you realize that you are maybe not as terrible as you think you are. I must say it is an adventure but one I am happy to be on.